one moment, you’re holding the person you love the most so close. So close you swear you could break them in half….and then you get an evil idea to try to. And they don’t even think that - they recognise it as pure love and affection of wanting to just absorb yourself with them.
and then the next. you can’t message them without feeling like an imposition, like you know they don’t want to talk to you. Well you feel like they don’t anyway.
I don’t think I’ve ever experienced this feeling properly until now. where someone in your life who knows you so well - becomes a complete stranger. like any other person on the street you glance at but never pay attention to.
I encounter hundreds of different people every week. And never pay attention more than a dollar amount and a courteous smile.
So why did you pay attention to me. Out of the sea of people. What made me stick out.
Because I sure as hell don’t understand it. Or feel like i can even bring myself out of a sea of people at the moment to show my true colours. Let me be myself with anyone.
the true me.
communication in sounds, not words, just indistinguishable noises.
a social smoker.
lover of bourbon and coke - even if the bourbon is ridiculously expensive.
Shy to the point where I stress over meeting new people meeting me and automatically hating me.
in love with all things disney, and i don’t care if that makes me a 4 year old. i fucking love it.
becomes obsessive with television shows like Friends.
lover of avocado.
When i’m half asleep i become hyper emotional, to the point of crying over red panda’s not being free from the zoo.
I am opinionated and to the point most of the time. if it doesn’t come out straight away it will once i’m drunk. (that’s not the best quality must admit)
Scared. Scared of being alone. being without someone who knows every tiny detail down to a T. because by the time you get to know me that well - years have passed and who knows if you’ll even really like - me?
Don’t touch me is more like what I should’ve said.
How to be happy when you’re not happy. Pretend you love everyone.
Even though you want to rip yourself to shreds.
- (via opensovl)
- (via californianrunway)
totes found my unicorn.
maybe magical unicorn cuddles with bring on sleep.
as of 12:12am i’m wide awake.
please grace me with more than an hour tonight.
- Humans of New York - Amman, Jordan (via 5000letters)