“How to kill someone:
Hold their hand and then never touch their skin again,
See them nearly everyday and pretend they don’t exist,
Act like everything you ever said to them was a lie.”—(via bl-ossomed)
One life stress has gone. Now to move onto other anxieties.
How to leave a job you’ve just been sorta promoted at - to try and find a job you’re actually qualified in.
Don’t get me wrong. The money and people are awesome where I work currently. But I feel so sad and stuck that after finishing uni I’m just busily making popcorn day to day. What a waste! I feel like such a failure and I have no direction of where to go or what to do.
When I plan everything and everything goes to shit. I don’t have a plan. It’s much harder to function when you’re shit scared about your life prospects.
The special lingerie I ordered just for you 2 months ago, custom made, decided to show up on my door step today.
Don’t know how I feel.
I don’t have anyone to wear it for anymore.
It’s not even something I can wear everyday.
Ugh. Hurting both emotionally and the bank account considering I just don’t have a use for it now.
Sometimes recovery is waking up early to write in coffee shops and practicing yoga and eating lots of fruit and chocolate and sometimes it’s staying in bed all day and hiding from the world until you can stop crying. All of this is okay. What’s important is that you take care of yourself no matter what kind of day you’re having.